(Today’s prompt is the first of five throughout the challenge called “Something random.”)
I woke up too early this morning, around 5:45 a.m. Too early even if I had work, but since I’m off today, it was extra too early.
The strangest things keep me up at night. I’ll wake up at three in the morning and be consumed by the thought of doing laundry. It’s been on my to-do list for a few days, I should really do it, I’m too tired to descend two flights of stairs to load the washer and come back up and down to switch to the dryer and up and down the collect it all again, I should really do it, I lived in an existence dominated by laundromats for a decade, I should do my damn laundry. The commitment to my well-being, I think, is my main source of stress. That I would put hours — well, a few three-minute chunks spread across two hours — into myself.
After I put my laundry in the washing machine, I checked to see when the next SCOTUS opinion day was. I knew when I read they’d added an extra Friday opinion day, rather than waiting until next week, that today was the day.
An hour and a half later, as my almost-forgotten clothes finished spinning dry, I got the push notification on my phone. My Twitter feed exploded with reactions and analysis and helpful links (which I’ve shared below). And I pulled out my laptop to write this entry, because I realized I had front-loaded my Roe v. Wade anxiety back in May, when the decision — this decision — was first leaked, when I first knew, and in this moment, I felt only the haze of that knowing so deeply that when it finally arrived, my body couldn’t decide how to react except to get up and move my laundry to the dryer, I fucking guess, because I already wasted all of today’s anxiety on that so I might as well finish it.
But maybe if we’d just voted harder—
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